for rebecca


it split the barrier of my mind

and carved a cozy  cavity

a little indent in the ground

a perfect place to haunt me.


it flourished in the darkness

finding nightmares to feed on

and each day i woke up with a prayer

that it woudl be gone.


but it had settled in to stay

and stay it surely did

but when people made me smile

it ran away and hid.


it hated me with painful thoughts

and i hated it with chalky pills

because a lot of people have an it

and an it kills.